Betrayed by a friend

Im still mad at him.saw him tonight and i was fuming internally but on the outside i smiled like it was all good.I feel like Ive been cheated on by a lover.I cant stand him.He lied to me and my ex.I want him to just disappear off the face off the earth but he wont cz he's dating my cousin.And all she can talk about is how great he is as a boyfriend and blah blah blah.I jus feel like screaming "OPEN YOUR EYES HE'S A LIAR,HE CHEATED ON YOU!!!HE LIED TO YOU!!!!HE'S NOT WORTH MORE THAN THE GUM UNDER YOUR SHOE!!!!" He may love her but since when has that been enough?uuuuugggghhhhh!!!!They talk about marriage and shit.Ill be damned if he ends up being my cousin in law,idiot.Im hurt and the bastard doesnt realise it.stupid.I hope wherever he is he trips on a crack in the pavement and fucks up his foot so he cant play basketball anymore,muhahahahahahaha!!!gosh im so bitter.
goodnight.

My funny moments....

My sister got a new coat that is supposed to be somewhat related to the trench coat family and it looks ridiculous on her.The arms are too short and its thick like a marshmellow.lol!i think its hilarious,so i was teasing her abt it on her facebook wall.The conversation went as follows:

ME - hahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!they made u buy a coat that makes u look like a marshmellow!!!!!lmao!!!!

SISTER - Ugh! Its not my problem. They were so persistant to spend their P260 on the coat even tho i told em i dont like it.

ME - 260 ON THAT F*&#ING MARSHMELLOW THINGYMAJIG!!!!?????!!!!???!!!!WHAT!!!!!!!!im heavily shocked.

SISTER - Yup. Now that i think of it, it was your fault. They told me how u already have a lots of trench coats and im the only one in this family without one. They insisted i must get with the trend. Neway its their money not mine. It will keep my suitcase nice and warm when i get to school. Plus i put it on sometimes just to make em happy. Mum says stuff like "see we told u dat u wud need it in the cold weather" and rushes off to tell dad and they laugh at how "dumb" i was to not want it in the shop. Did u see the way they defended the sleeves this afternoon? Classic! I didnt have to say a word.

Gosh my sister's funny sometimes,had me giggling at my pc.lol!
Then recently I got a knee injury when i fell off a couch and its been achin again today. Its such a stupid way to get injured.I wasn't playing a sport or anything,no jus fell off a couch.
It was so ridiculous.We were at a friends watching the Barcelona Man-U champions league match.
I was wearing this HUGE puffer jacket and for whatever reason i wanted to roll over the back of the couch onto the seat part, but cz the jacket ws so puffy i bounced off the couch and on to the floor and my knee hit the corner of the coffee table.Ridiculous!I laughed my ass off.It hurt slightly on impact but nothing hectic.I sat back down and thought nothing of it.....little did i know....
When the game was over i stood up but soon collapsed in pain,i almost cried,and not jus any cry-the ugly cry.Had to be helped to the car cz i cudnt walk.ridiculous.
now im injured.....like the way basketball or football players get injured,HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!stupid.
sigh.yes,only i can get injured doing nuthin.

Fridays Song

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n9yay4PX0OA Such a funny video,love it!!!

Bus ride home

Mummy requested her baby go home for a week so I got my affairs in order and decided to travel today.Got a cab to take me to the bus rank at 11am,found one bus leaving as I was arriving so had to wait a few mins for the next one.
Some nice man decided to help me with my bags, I chose not argue with him,even helped me find a seat.Gave him a few coins as a thank you and he walked away smiling.Had to wait about 20 mins for the bus to fill up.For that whole 20 mins I was constantly harassed by hawkers attempting to sell me Hungry lion meals.If I didn't buy the meal from the guy infront of you I probably just don't want the meal....
When the bus started off I was thinking yeah,I'm ready!This time I am ready.Got my gloves,wearing a top,jersey,polo neck and hoodie,tights and jeans and my long thick socks plus got a spare pair in my bag,mp3 player batteries fully charged,got food and a tiny bit of extra cash,I'M READY!!
While trying to get comfortable I realise the seats weren't made for humans,or they were but they'd require us to have no necks or something along those lines.Where the neck support is supposed to be the seat curves inwards then suddenly juts out towards the back of your head.So someone created seats that encourage slouching,nice.
So an hour into the trip I need a toilet break,luckily we got to the first major stop pretty quickly.I rush off the bus and its raining.Forgot to take out the umbrella so I have to run to the pay toilets and back.In my Marion Jones moment I accidentally step left foot first into a giant puddle.Now my left foot is soaked.Still keeping a stiff upper lip I return to my seat and put on my extra pair of socks.However i can't exactly leave my foot out,the solitary sock is not enough to keep my foot warm so the shoes have to come back on.The wetness takes a while to dry and in the process freezes my foot so I'm now sitting uncomfortably and shivering.The rain gets worse and I soon discover that the window I'm sitting next to leaks, so every now and then I receive a spray of ice cold rain water on my thigh.
Leaning on the window in an attempt to take a nap is obviously out of the question so I have to develop a ninja-rish way of sleeping while sitting upright without neck support.Eventually I work something out but I'm woken up occasionally by the leaking window.I endured this for 3-4 hours.
I was a defeated soul by the time the bus arrived at the Francistown Bus Rank.I want to stone every bus I see.
Its either I'm being toasted while fighting with the curtains to shield the sun in summer, or freezing and miserable during winter.Then there's the excellent selection of people to sit next to;the man who chooses to eat oily chicken and chips and wipe his hands on the seat or the woman who's travelling with her baby who is constantly crying or the girl who thinks your shoulder is available as a pillow.
I hate buses.

life.....

hey bloggers!
ive been away but im back.
finally done with tertiary education for now,yey!waiting for my results now and hopefully things shall be good.it was stressfull but its over.
Right now i am going through a break up,a break up between friends though.my male friend Y borrowed some cash from my ex through me and now he's failing to pay and on top of that he's not telling the truth about whether he'll be able to get the money any time soon.and its quite a large amount of money so i can't afford to let him go with it.now my ex is forced to absorb the loss.I let him stay in my room on campus though i wasnt aware it was illegal and they found him and fined us both 1500,i was supposed to pay 500 and he was supposed to pay 1000.i offered to cover half and he still cant come up with the cash.so now i have to cover everything,i cant afford it so i had to ask my ex.he agreed to cover the fine for me.and in all this inconvenience Y hasn't once said he's sorry.nothing.yet i put my ass out for him,fool.he's shown his true colours though so now im kinda cautious arnd him,but what kind of friendship is that?
He's dating my cousin and there is alot of shadiness surrounding that relationship.He has no place to stay currently and he has no money and he's quite depressed but his girlfriend doesnt know.why?cz he won't tell her.and the thing is she'll never ask cz she's super self centered.there was a day he was visibly down and she didnt notice,her sister had to tell her he wasn't looking happy.he's been borrowing transport money from me to go see her even though he can just ask her cz she aint broke.he's stressin himself to visit her wen she can jus as easily get on a bus to see him.he's not eating and he says he's doin all this cz my cousin "needs" him,riiiiight.my cousin has never "needed" anyone.its so ridiculous.If they can't even be honest with each other in the first 3 months of their relationship how will they last till marriage (they say they will get married).When we told her yes marriage is a great goal but they need to be realistic (he has to go to med school in Russia and she's about to complete university and after that she might not stay in this country)and she told us we dont know what love is cz we've never been where she is and yet her longest relationship is her current one while the rest of us have had relationships that have lasted for years.They are both annoying me now even though most of their nonsense has nothing to do with me.And im not the only one,her sisters are complaining as well.maybe we're just haters,maybe we've got a point,you decide.it jus seems hilarious from the outside.
i have to get my life started,need to find a job and get out of mummys house.
still sort of single,horrible feeling.was with my ex today and we kind of had a tiff,lol.it got me upset though.basically the disagreement reminded me of the reason we are not officially together.i had started to believe we were together again.feels like a hard punch to the stomach.
anyway,thats all thats on my mind today.
gnyt bloggers.

$%&#$&*&%!!!!

Im so annoyed,I really hate being kept waiting and he kept me waiting for most of the afternoon.E was supposed to come get me for a shopping trip,he postponed a couple of times and then jus went silent.aaarrrggghhh!
If he was too busy why didnt he just say so?I even got all dressed up and all.Felt like an idiot sitting in my room jus waiting.
anyway Im trying to let it go.I get pretty consumed by bad emotions,its a worrying trait.To use a metaphor,if i was a sky and one cloud represented anger,a few minutes after that cloud appearing the sky would quickly be covered in clouds.and after cloudiness rain would follow.When intensly angry i always end up crying.gosh i need to learn how to control this nonsense.It jus takes one small thing to set it off and as a result my whole day gets ruined.
Had quite a bad school wk,had too much work to do and not enough time to do it in.got some date extensions for my projects but saturday has gone so all i have is sunday now.and i was supposed to have a group meeting for one report thats due next wk wednesday but im thinkin of skipping that one.Need to do my solo project and make sure its perfect.will be up tonight doing it as well,Ive learnt my lesson:procrastination gets you nowhere.
Met D again today,his lack of interest amazes me.still.or maybe im jus a sore loser.
ive become a slave to the internet,im now on twitter as well www.twitter.com/Ms_Jemilah
anyway,got to attempt to eat this horrible school food.my stomach doth protest already.

Update

Every time I try to post something my mind comes up blank,I wonder why.
its not like things aren't happening in my life they are but for some reason they do not inspire me to write.
I guess I can just give a short run down of what's been happening lately:
1. my cousin and her boyfriend annoy me
2. my ex and I have finally reached a good place I think and he's being so supportive as always.
3. im clueless as to what will happen after I graduate and im running out of time!
4. im worried abt my final year project,im way behind schedule!
5. my laziness is becoming an incredible thorn in my side!!!i need to do something!!!
6. there has been no electricity at the university for the past 8 hours...what the hell!!!ive got lots of work to do!!!
7. before the power cut there was no Internet for a day and a half...what the hell!!!I need to facebook!!!
8. went home for Easter,mother treated us to new clothes,food and money,what more could a child want?
9. I keep finding myself tearing up during emotional scenes in movies and even reality shows....a little worrying...I never used to crumble that easy and its not even that time of the month!
10. im a financial mess yet again, *sigh*.

I guess that covers it.
till inspiration finds me....
goodnight Internet world.